Life moves so fast.
Everything is going along and makes so much sense and then it doesn't.
I STILL, after all this time, can't decide whether this very long road toward the Peace Corps is right for me-- right now.
Tonight, I get to sing J.S. Bach's masterful Mass in B Minor with a professional orchestra. This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for a musician. Singing it is more powerful than I can ever put into words.
...so I'm up there singing and in the back of my mind thinking "how can I leave all this?" Music is my blood. In my bones. I feel music. I understand music. I am passionate about music. And right now I get to spend all day every day making music. I'm so SO lucky.
I am going to spend today trying very hard to quiet my mind and hoping that somewhere in the middle of Bach's magnificent 2 hour+ work, music and my conscience will become one-- and tell me what I need to hear.
i know it is a tough decision and there is no correct answer. you choose one road or the other and either one you will be ok. i know that is not what you want to hear. i know you want a magic answer...someone to tell you which is the right way to go. i want that too all the time! i still say wait to hear where you are posted, and then you can decide. then you will have more information. xo
ReplyDeleteI completely understand where you're coming from, "Is peace corps right for me right now?" But what would make it the right time? You have a very special opportunity to teach and share with people in another country your love of music. So it won't be the same as what you have right now, but hopefully it could bring you joy and fulfillment as well. Good Luck!
ReplyDeleteYou'll very likely find a way to incorporate music into your PC experience, whether by simply sharing it with your community or by focusing one of your secondary projects around it.
ReplyDeleteI don't mean to say, "therefore, PC is right for you so stop thinking about it." It's just something to consider.